Thanksgiving No. 1

It is the day after the Thanksgiving holiday, and thankfully, all went well in my home with our Thanksgiving reunion and meal. It was pared down, it stayed within the traditional parameters, it was peaceful, and we really took time to be verbally thankful.

As I sat to write this I began to think about the way I am centering in on the self-life. This hasn’t been easy to balance. I was steeped in Reformed thinking, and self in that stream of thinking is next to condemnation. The self is depraved, an enemy to be dealt with, something which is denied. That isn’t the official doctrine (except for the word “depraved”) but it is very much the translation we often give it. Today( which means maybe not tomorrow if I get better insight and revelation), I think it is self as “king” that is described in the call to deny self and take up the cross. The self on the other side of the resurrection is the likeness of Christ, the self as servant. It is on that side that we try to view our giftedness as believers, with whatever is salvaged from our lives and dreams at the starting point of new life along with what spiritual gifts are given us by the Holy Spirit.
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To Thine Own Self Be True

I had always thought that was a self-idolizing maxim. I felt it was in opposition to all that the call of the cross represented, but in the context of some things I am slowly facing … I have to look again at the idea within that piece of the world’s wisdom.

How often are we misguided in our walk as Christians, or for the common experience of humanity, by untrue representations of us, of our goals or abilities? How much of our life is wasted in meeting others expectations; expectations that are so incongruent with who we are and how we are made and what it is we are best pursuing in life? How much is clearly ignoring God’s plan and message to us personally? How much is substitution of confusing stereotype and dead-end thinking?
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Insane Drummers: more on giftedness

This is a bit of my story on why the topic of adult giftedness so hooked me.

The title is borrowed from Laura Young, who put it so succinctly:
“What happened to them once they hit adulthood?

Well, it turns out, a lot of them have felt a bit out of step with their peers and have been fluctuating between trying to force themselves to be normal by shutting themselves down and berating themselves(“But everyone else seems so happy. What’s wrong with me?”) and not giving a rip (“Screw it. I’m the smartest one here. Too bad I’m not smart enough to hide it. Fire me, go ahead, this place is whacked anyway.”) In short, that leaves a lot of people (Jacobsen estimates between 5-10% of the population) feeling lonely, confused, wracked with self-doubt, irritable, questioning, stalled, inconsistent, frustrated and wondering if the drummer they have been desperately trying to march to is, well, insane.”

What really has complicated all this is that as a Christian I should have made faster, greater progress on this. At least that is what I have been telling myself for years.
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Authentic Happiness

..or so they say. Authentic Happiness Survey

I took an online test that profiled me as:
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IPIP-NEO test results

Took the test. If you would like to, check it out here.

EXTRAVERSION……………29

Friendliness………….36

Gregariousness………..35

Assertiveness…………72

Activity Level………..32

Excitement-Seeking…….17

Cheerfulness………….17

AGREEABLENESS…………..26

Trust………………..0

Morality……………..46

Altruism……………..46

Cooperation…………..27

Modesty………………39

Sympathy……………..80

CONSCIENTIOUSNESS……….12

Self-Efficacy…………38

Orderliness…………..5

Dutifulness…………..7

Achievement-Striving…..36

Self-Discipline……….7

NEUROTICISM…………….58

Anxiety………………46

Anger………………..84

Depression……………80

Self-Consciousness…….40

Immoderation………….35

Vulnerability…………39

OPENNESS TO EXPERIENCE…..60

Imagination…………..66

Artistic Interests…….72

Emotionality………….41

Adventurousness……….55

Intellect…………….90

Liberalism……………14

( via Parableman)

If you want to see still more stuff about yours truly ( hehe..that syncs well with truegrit…), and what it all means, open the magic window:
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