This is about me. It is about blogging. It is about politics and religion.
Now, you don’t have to read this if none of that interests you, but I found myself on a comments section being forced to confess to reaching my frustration limit. I don’t like to publicly address how close I am to reaching a limit. I prefer to just quietly move off the screen. but I am writing here because I know that my frustration is not with individuals, as much as it might seem that way…. my frustration is with the political situation and in reading and thinking about it, I am getting deeply distressed.
The unreasonable voices that pit against each other on both sides of partisan politics, on important issues, on the war, on how to treat what -sincerely and honestly- we can term “the Muslim problem”. I am distressed that I have to actually term it, and look at it in that way.
And one of my long held tenets is crumbling. I am moving in heart and mind more towards a more spiritualized Christianity. That is both good and bad. If I become blind to my culture and those around me, to the problems in society, it is bad, but if I turn away from my own ideas of how to respond, and rely more on Christ to give me wisdom and control, that is good. The balance is wildly swinging on that, for me -at this time.
I admit that I have something of a prejudice against Islam. That is something I did not have before, it is something I struggle with because my principles trump my feelings. It is not principled to have prejudice against any group. One should address difficulties as they arise, and keep to the platforms upon which they arise. I cannot abandon that… I won’t. But I am aghast at the inhumanity of man, and right now so much of that is played out by Muslims.
And it causes me deep distress. It colors my prayers:”Lord, move within the Islamic communities to open the hearts and minds of the women. To open their hearts to the freedom in Christ” and like that. Because the women of a society promulgate that society, they support it and give it the will and desire to continue. The men can lead all they want, but they cannot long continue without the warp and weft of their homes and of women giving the inner strength to the sails of their society.
Whether I would be watching news programs or whether I read the internet media, there is lots of bad news out there. Thinking people can’t get their jollies by jumping on bandwagons. They obsess, they cogitate, they formulate. All well and good, but for a Christian we get this perspective-giving monkey wrench: how to give out the Good News? How to have that single eye that cuts through the confusion and applies oneself to where one can do the most good?
I have held onto tattered ideas that public forum of ideas is helpful, useful, good. It is sort of like my own little ‘star-spangled banner”. Still waving, but filled with shot-holes.
And I really don’t like making forced confessions. Not even when it is I who have forced them……
I hope this to be the last for awhile.