Quietness and Confidence

I keep thinking of that scripture verse that was played within my mind through the tumultuous years of my teens:

Isaiah 30:15

For thus says the Lord GOD, the Holy One of Israel: “ In returning and rest you shall be saved; In quietness and confidence shall be your strength.” But you would not

People will not let you go of your past. They will render it into a thorned club to beat you and beat you – until you confess over and over how terrible and awful you are… how superior and wonderful they are. This is the way of man, and this is why so many will do anything, anything to maintain the facade of their good image and reputation.

I believe you have to let go of that as a Christian. You have to start facing the facts of the past, yes, but more importantly you have to have your future firmly implanted in the dictations of God. He does not ties us to our pasts, we do… and our fellow humans do, if we let them.

Sometimes doing right is made to look very wrong by those with an evil eye.

Isaiah 5:20

Woe to those who call evil good, and good evil; Who put darkness for light, and light for darkness; Who put bitter for sweet, and sweet for bitter!

When this happens you have to put your confidence in God, remain quiet, and trust in Him to vindicate. You can put your confidence in God, if in all good conscience you have tried to follow His commandments. This is not legalistic adherence to rules, but putting yourself on the line to try to fulfill them in the spirit of love. I do not understand how this can get so evil spoken of… except that people love their own gain, their own good reputation at the loss of yours, their ill-thought and hasty judgments more than patiently finding the root of a matter. That explains it rationally, but that does not explain the horrible damage done by such. And the pride by which they drive it all along to its destructive end. It doesn’t explain that.

You don’t get all the explanations you crave in this life; you don’t get all the justice, either. You can, however choose whether you will trust in God, or get rolled under the crush of that which would demand perfection of our so imperfect humanity. If people will not let go of your past when you are clearly a different person, you must let go of them. Time is too short and the challenges ahead are too great.